my hearts at home!!!

I am doing this bible study on thursday mornings with all my lady friends..
it really has opened my eyes to a lot
the book is titled
MY Hearts At HOME
by Jill Savage

great book to read. we are doing a section a week so far I have read

Part 1 the foundation

Home as a safe house - HOme is central to understanding who we are and who we belong to. and also what we stand for. TO know that everyone in the house is to feel safe loved honored cherished and blessed in the house is a very important thing to know. she goes on into saying that even though the foundation isnt normally seen it is the most important part of the house. Am I building a strong foundation for my family. amd I honoring my husband and children? AM I some one they can run to when they are hurt or crying or need to be hugged and loved on? What can I do to better my self to be the best in all I do for my family? Do I respect my children and my husband? Do I practice Grace and forgiveness. Do I stop look and listen? I want to make my house a safe place. isn't the world dangerous enough. I have learned that I need to play with them all together and individually. I need to connect with them I need to sted clear standards. I need to model a healthy life for them to look up to!I also need to let them know that even grown ups fail at things and it is okay to fail as long as you pick your self up. It is only the natural part of life isn't it?!
(When home is a safe house I know i feel safe and secure when I am at home) -JS

Home as a Rest area

Home as a trauma unit

home as a church

part 2 the frame work

HOme as a pep rally

HOme as a Research lab

My new years plans... yup

Well I dont want to start setting resolutions cause they never seem to stick I can list some plans I may have thought
I really want to do so much this year
for some reason 2010 seems to me to be the best year ever!!
Well I want it to be. I have accomplished so much in my life already
this month Iam going to turn 29. wow my last year in my twenty's I need to make the best of it.
so that said this is what we would love to do
1. read the bible in a year
2. be 120 pounds and fit. get in shape enough to run a mile with out being out of breath
3. teach our children about GOD and help them memorize his word
4. buy a house
5. visit Kendra in NC
6. visit tim and ashley in TX
7. visit kristie shane and parents in CO
8. go to washington DC
9. go to boston
10. go to maine with joe's parents and also visit aunt ellen and uncle doug and paige
11. go to niagra falls
12. go to NYC at least 4 to 6 times this year
13. get 7 tattoo's I really want to finish them all before I am 30
13. read my list of books I have created for the year 2010
14. do devotionals with joe
15. buy a great Dane puppy in the fall
16. Get our finances in check and have a huge saving's account
17. get van paid off before December 31st 2010
18. go to PEI Island
19. go ice skating hiking and swimming a lot
20. blog more and jounal as well
21. get all my christmas cards made and mailed by December 5th 2010
22. plant a garden
23. have jaime potty trained by the end of march
24. grow my hair down to my bra strap (well most likely will have to be a two year plan)
25. sponser a child from campassion international and do operation christmas child
26. grow as a christian wife mother daughter sister and friend
27. not be so depressed all the time and finally get out of that pit of pity
28. Follow Gods will for my life.
29. prepare our family for a summer missiontrip to go to south or central america in 2011 or 2012
30 swim with a dolphin

But I know I also have to be content with what ever happens in my life and know that if I pray and follow God I will be blessed even if I dont get all that are on my list of things to do this year or next!!!
these are some of my plans and wishes and dreams
well off to the shower before the kids get crazy
~Always
DEB

If I were to have sent christmas cards =(

Well if I had time to send christmas cards this year. well I guess i mean last year saying it is now 2010. I would have sent pictures and a letter

so I thought I would do it anyway here in my blog

To all my family and friends,

wow another year has come and gone. so much has happened. We had a pretty good year. lots of ups and downs but it was still a great year.

I started school in february and graduated in august and finished all the hours first week in october and passed my state boards in november and started working at a salon in burnt hills on route 50. the name is personal image. work with wonderful women and love being a cosmetologist. Oh I also gave birth to my fourth child may 3rd. was amazing and precious. I enjoyed every pregnancy. this last one was a bit hard though. I remember having such bad back pain and asking if I could be induced cause i was in so much pain but they said no cause I was measuring small and they thought he was going to be about 7 pounds when he was born. haha he must have been hiding behind my liver cause that boy was not 7 pounds but a big 9 pounds 2 ounces. the biggest baby I ever had.. he came on his own 5 days early. even though I am so sad and feel bad I will never have another baby I am feeling very accomplished and proud of my little litter and am so glad to get my body back and work on my health. saying they have sucked the life out of me

Now for joe. He has worked so hard taking care of our little family. works full time as a plumber for the union for Degesare mech.. He loves it. loves the people he works for and with. He has done work around our church for them since it is such a gift and is blessed with it. he loves doing side jobs as well. one of his dreams is to start his own business some day. Not only does he work so hard at work and talks about it endlessly LOL. he is wonderful at home taking care of us and cooking for us when I was in school. I just love him to death

We have had lots of help from my family and our church family. they are truely amazing I dont know what I would have done with out all the meals and also with out my dad. he is the best man I know... I love him and he is my hero. he can hold things together so well and my kids love him so much and look up to him and his strength.

Daina, who is our oldest is now 6 1/2. she finished kindergarden and started first grade loves soccer and running around. playing with friends. her best friend tyler and her have the best of times at recess and play dates. she loves awana and sunday school.

Danielle, who is 4 1/2 loves ballet and crafty things. she can put together 50 peice puzzles all by herself. I am so proud of her. she was potty trained in january and has enjoyed awana and sunday school and loves growing up. she loves to be just like her sister. she can also be very dramatic. but lets not go there

as for my little jaime susan rose. now she is my little puppy. no I mean almost every day she was a puppy. she can not stand to be potty trained and may not be till she is 10 but oh well gotta let that go for a little bit. she sure makes up her mind and stands by it. if we can grab ahold of her and bring her up the way God wants her she will be one amazing witness for him. man she likes to make people do just about anything.

Jonathan. well he has learned so much. rolling over, crawling, scooting, cooing, bouncing, eating, holding his own bottle, getting three teeth, sitting up, standing up, what a wonder he is. He captured the heart of his sisters and I know he will be able to protect him saying he is 21 pounds already at the age of 8 months. that boy is our linebacker

We also have a wonderful 4 year old cat named shadow. he is the love of our kids lives and i am glad he is part of our family

joe and I have also been married for 9 years this december 30th. so this year is a great wonderful year.



hope you all have a blessed christmas and new years..

God bless
love the baas family
Deb, joe, Daina, Danielle, Jaime, Jonathan and shadow

now thats what I would say if I wrote a christmas letter and sent out cards the the 200+ people on our list
well anways

Saying GOODBYE

2009,

Wow 2009 is over and gone. THank you for a year to remember. so much has happened. I am glad I got to share it with you my sweet 2009. you gave me some great sunshine days. some wonderful cloudly afternoons. thank you for the rain and the snow.

My daughter Daina grew a whole inch and started 1st grade. she lost her first two teeth and got all new clothes. her hair is almost touching the top of her pants. Wow I cant believe it.

Danielle turned into such a princess. she only likes dresses. she s tarted ballet and loves it. dances all over the house, she loves to cry and whine and talk about how much she wants to be an only child. LOL. now thats a new thing. she doesnt like to be stuck in the middle.

Jaime turned three this year. I can't believe it. how can time fly by so fast. she has become very independant and loves to do things all on her own. she is so defiant and it has been a challenge trying to figure out how to discipline her.

I gave birth to my fourth child jonathan christopher cornelius who will kill us when he goes to kindergarden and they tell him to wrhite his whole name. a boy is special. so different. I love him.

Joe loves his job and is working hard and got promoted. it is really cool to see him at work., and his side jobs have picked up and everything.

wow what else happend in 2009. oh year so many people had died like FF, PS, MJ and so many more. wow they will be missed. I have always liked PS and MJ great people they were!! oh and what about all the births. we had 2 sets of twins born at my church and lots of others.

our church finished the addition and still more to come. the growth is great. I love it.

2009 you will be missed. thanks for a wonderful season. hope you dont get to mad that I am falling in love with 2010. he just has so much to offer and so many things to look farward to so good by 09. your memories with not be forgotten.

so much has happened in 2009
I Grew a lot as a person
I gave birth to my fourth child,
what a blessing that was.

Perfect love

Perfect love

Everyone longs to give himself to someone

to have a deep relationship with another

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But to the christian,

God says "no not yet."

Not until you are satisfied and fulfulled and content (ps22:26)

By being loved by me alone,

By giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me.....

To have an intensely personal

and unique relationship with me alone (prob8:17)

I love you my child,

and until you discover that

only in me is your satisfactioin to be found (ps 107:5-9)

you will not be united with one another

until you are united with me exculively,.

I want you to stop wishing, stop planning,

and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing...

one that you cant even begin to imagine!!

I want you to have the best.

Please allow me to bring it to you.

You, just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things.

keep expecting that satisfaction knowing that i am

Dont be anxious.

Dont worry.

Dont look around at the things others have

that i have given them.

You just keep looking off and up to me

or you'll miss what i have to show you (phil 4:19)

and when you are ready,

i'll surprise you with a love more exciting

and wonderful than you would ever dream of.

You see untill you are ready

and the one i have planned for you is ready

I am working even this minute

to have both of you ready at the same time

until you are both satisfied exclusivly with me

and the life i rpepared for both of you,

you wont be able to experience the love

that exemplifies your relationship with me;

and this is PERFECT LOVE!!!

(given to me in 1997 author unknown)

You see God had a gift for you that is so precious. so intimate, so amazing. are you willing to wait for his timing??

for those who are not married. this is something that you can hold close and dear to your heart and have something so precious. keep your self pure and wait till your wedding night to share a gift so precious. if you have not been pure you can start today you can choose today to give all of your self to god and stay pure from this moment

If you are married and you are struggling give your life and your heart over to God let him help you.

Let him be your perfect love.

He can change your marriage and make it the best most exciting thing in the world

GOD IS GOOD and he loves you so much

For the greatest gift is love 1COR 13:13

We love because he first loved us 1 jn 4:19

I just love this. I was cleaning out my bin of stuff. and found this in there. I was reading it and thought what a gift i have in Jesus Christ. I have been married almost 9 years. it will be 9 years december 30th. I am so glad that Joe and I found each other though the grace of GOD and are working on our marriage.

after Jaime was born I hit a depression and had post pardum and felt very lonely. the devil saw that and wedged his foot in the door I tried to keep closed. for about 18 months joe and i fought and yelled and ignored and put down and just started letting go of all the things that were holding us together. when things went bad we tried to fix it with out own strenght, with our own ducktape. and then one of us would rip it off. until on day in the spring of 2008. I would say in april. we ripped it off so quickly that we were frayed so badly we couldn't put it back together. we dangled over a cliff.

With God at the top reaching down to us saying "PLEASE NOW MY CHILDREN LET ME HELP YOU. LET ME BUILD YOU UP. LET ME CARRY YOU TO MY MOUNTAIN. LET ME HEAL THE WOUNDS. I LOVE YOU. PLEASE DONT REJECT MY GIFT I GAVE YOU EACH OTHER. PLEASE DONT SEND IT AWAY." while he was saying that the devil reared his ugly vile head out from under a rock. saying (I CAN CATCH YOU GUYS LET GO FALL DOWN. DONT YOU SEE MY CUSION? YOU DONT NEED GOD YOU DONT NEED EACH OTHER. GO YOUR SEPERATE WAYS FIND LOVE MY WAY. IT IS ALL AROUND YOU. IF YOU WANT IT ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS REACH OUT AND TAKE IT.)

Joe and i looked at each other.

we said why dont we just divorce

this is not working

so as we dangled we let go of each others hand

and left our fate in the frayed rope

i found that i didnt feel anything if I drank so thats what i wanted to do. I worked as much as I could to stay away from the loneliness and

joe felt that he didn't feel anything if he burried him self in work and tv and side jobs

in the mist of all this our children were hurting. we no longer had family time

we no longer played with them

we no longer showed them the love that GOD told us to show them

God used a letter from Joe's mom to soften us

and the plea of a little child 5 years old girl who said plan as day

"God made this family. that means a family that lives to gether needs to stay together. I dont want to end up with two moms and to dads. I want the ones God gave me.

It just broke my heart.

so august was almost over

Our pastors said they would pay for counciling

so august 20th we decided to start counciling

We decided to let God pull us up from the brink

GODS PERFECT LOVE

GODS GRACE

We will forever live with the choices we made on our own in our own power

fro the rest of our lives

but we are not alone

we have been healed

God healed it with a bond that can never be severed

never be broken

and will never be taken away from us

HIS LOVE, MERCY, AND GRACE

HOW POWERFUL IS THAT!!!

when we are old and gray in our rocking chairs on the front pourch and our children are grown and our grandchildren are looking for love we will be able to share the LOVE OF CHRIST and help build their faith in the LORD

well enough with all this rambling and writing I am hungry and i beleive my little man needs to eat

good bye for now see you in the next one

D>E>B

Bible studies

I was sitting in bible study today and realized that I have such a wonderful church, a wonderful group of women, a place I can go when I am happy and share things. a place I can go when I am sad and hear others share and learn from them. Women to women is a wonderful biblestudy I am so thankful to be a apart of it I think it is very important to be apart of a group of people who believe in God and can help you grow in your walk with God. life is hard. and it is such a sinful place to be. and if you are all alone it will be a scary dark road. but if you fix your eyes on God and walk with others the walk will not be as hard or as long. I am glad I go to bible study.

Well today as i was sitting on the couch i was looking at pictures of my first born. and this picture just stuck in my head. she was only 2 in this picture. my loving crazy two year old girl. i can't believe she is 6 and is in 1st grade now. she can read over my shoulders and is so very smart. One of the nick names we have for her is Daina monkey. she loves it. she is our wild crazy hyper loving child who loves to just have fun . I pray that she can be silly who whole life. I hope she follows the Lord in everything she does and knows she is always loved. I love this little precious child!!!